When thinking about this RHS writing project,
some of you may have felt your perspective is not important or that you
don't write with enough sophistication to contribute. (Remember, you can
still submit essays for our web site and you don't have to avoid all the
grammatical errors that we learned at RHS).
Some of you may have had good intentions to write, but then old feelings of
guilt about not having homework done raise their gnarled heads. I know, I've
been there, and the more I insist I will complete a project, the more I put
it off. Perhaps some of you who grew up in the RHS culture were able to
avoid problems with guilt and are not immobilized by it. Be thankful.
(Actually, I suspect that guilt motivates some people, that they get extra
busy with projects and achievements, prodded on by a sense of guilt that
makes others of us freeze in our tracks.)
Well, if you have been intending to write, and if guilt has a part in
slowing you down, just tell the inner demon to take a walk or ask it to sit
in the room next door and read the Sunday paper to allow you the space and
time to prepare your thoughts for the web project. Perhaps you could set a
timer for 20 minutes and start writing whatever comes to your mind, even if
it is blasphemy about this project or about some mal-favored teacher from
Rolfe. Maybe it will take more than one session to prime the pump, but my
point is that you simply start and not worry if what you write is good
enough or appropriate.
You can always refine your raw material. It's a lot easier these days to
edit text with computers than it was when students relied on writing by hand
or using a typewriter with erasable bond paper or Correcto-type ribbon. And
besides, the old patriarchs and matriarchs of RHS won't be grading your
work. Many of them have passed on, and the ones still living would probably
be glad to read your thoughts. And if they're not, to heck with them.
Besides, it's a new era. You can write for your own benefit and express what
you want and have fun (well, maybe "fun" isn't exactly the right word, but
you get the point). And your current audience (in this booklet or on the
Internet) is more diverse and open to a variety of ideas than was the case
within the confines of RHS.
One good argument for not writing for this project would be that you have
more important priorities for your creative energies and that you don't have
any fondness for or loyalty to Rolfe or your school experience. That
certainly would be understandable. I actually don't have a lot of love for
my K-12 experience, and I often wonder why I volunteered to be on the
all-class reunion committee or why I put so much energy into creating the
web site or this booklet.
I first considered doing the project when pondering how to share the photos
that I have of Rolfe and RHS in my documentary collection. A web site seemed
the perfect vehicle for putting photos out there for all sorts of Rolfe
people and expatriates to view. People wouldn't have to come to Greater
Rolfe Days and the high school reunion to look at a bulletin board and
wouldn't have to take time away from visiting with friends while in Rolfe to
view photos. The goal of instituting a cyber photo gallery has been
accomplished. Many thanks to Randy Martin, our webmaster, for all his work.
Although I am a photographer and the web site helps show off my collection,
my biggest desire in creating the site was for it to be an avenue of
discourse. It could be a new means of conversation, combining the best
elements of a traditional all-class reunion with today’s cyber technology.
Sure it’s great to have a face-to-face conversation with old friends on Main
Street, at a park, in the school, or at the rec room of a private home.
However, a web writing project allows "a web" of connections that can be
ongoing and not limited to whether or not you matriculated through the
hallowed halls of the Rolfe schools at the same time as your fellow
correspondents. Also, web communication could have a freedom that doesn’t
exist at some typical class reunions. Have you ever gotten a meaningful
conversation going at one of those events and then have Mr. or Ms.
Popularity from your class make a teasing remark or have Mr. or Ms. Bigshot
make some insensitive comment that dampens the experience? My intent for
this project is "discourse" in a way that was different than when we were in
high school, both because we are older (and perhaps wiser) and because of
the kinds of connections afforded by cyber technology (or the ability to
self-publish a book such as this one.) That’s why I nudge people to write,
but like another adage says, "You can lead a horse to water but not make her
drink."
There’s another value in having all sorts of people write for this project.
It has to do with the multitude of perspectives that come out of RHS. It’s
been said that no two people grow up in the same family. That’s because the
configuration is different for the first born than the third born. By the
time the third child arrives, parents have grown older, there are new
sibling dynamics, and newspaper headlines have changed. For instance, there
is a difference between the perspective of the first child who was born
early in WWII and the third child who arrived in 1945 when the Allied Forces
celebrated their victory in Europe.
It could also be said that no two people pass through the same school. RHS
was a far different experience for my great aunts and uncles in the first
two decades of the 20th century than for my father who graduated in 1935. In
turn, his experience was different than mine (I was born at the end of WWII
and graduated in 1963). It seems obvious there would be different
experiences for students from decades so far apart, but there are also
differences within a decade. My experience is different than that of my
sister Clara (the oldest in our family and born early in WWII). When you
read Clara’s essay, you will see she has always put a high value on
education. She is still going to school, working on an educational doctorate
at the University of Nebraska at Omaha. She is also a curriculum coordinator
in the Millard school system, where she had been a librarian for several
years. It’s interesting how some people love school (they have a high degree
of comfort in classrooms with authority figures and with academia), and how
other people such as myself wouldn’t ever want to take another formal
academic course. (I still haven’t figured out how I had the patience to get
two master’s degrees, but those were part of my past lives and even then as
in my days at RHS, I had a restlessness with formal education.)
A Photo is Worth 1000 Words, But . . .
The value of a collection of essays or a cyber forum is that all sorts of
perspectives can be shared. That is not true of a photo gallery.
I still encourage people to submit photos, but the problem with the photos
is one of content, even if the focus, composition, and quality of light are
good. Simply put, high school photos are usually of highly visible persons
and popular activities. Such collections include sports photos, especially
those of winning teams. There are also Homecoming photos of queens (later
some kings) and royal courts. But what do we know of the stories behind
these photos? In the portraits of athletic teams, the players look clean
cut, handsome, and sometimes smart, but what do we know about the group
dynamics of the team or the character of the individuals? Which ones were
admired by fellow students and which ones were jerks? A basketball player
from the 1930s who led his team to the state tournament would play
basketball at a state college and be a stellar citizen, remembered with
admiration for decades around the state. Years later, a star Rolfe football
player would play ball at a state university but have mental health
problems, become an unattractive hermit, and die a lonely and messy death on
his family’s farm.
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1938 RHS basketball team —
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The point is that sports photos don’t tell much about the people in them.
The photos don’t tell what the players loved about the game, what pressures
were exerted on them to be high-level achievers, what obstacles they had to
overcome to gain success, what their regrets were, and whether they would
turn out "good or bad."
Another problem with sports photos is they capture only one dimension of the
school experience. What photos do we have of Max who was in my class? He
wasn’t on any high school sports teams or in any of the status activities,
but I recall him being the only one in Mr. Nagle’s physics class who could
explain to me how a piston recycled to its original position following a
blast of internal combustion so it (the piston) could again exert its power.
(I’m sure a true car mechanic would describe the process with different
words, but I am doing my best.) I remember Max drawing a diagram of a crank
shaft. (I’m quite sure that’s what it was. Where are you, Max?) After
viewing his sketch, everything made sense when no other explanation helped.
What do we know of his story or perspectives?
Do we have photos of Nancy, class of 1962, who was a valedictorian but
absolutely no good at sports? I can remember her in her white, broadcloth
physical education uniform during a volleyball class. She would shrink and
back away if the ball came her direction. Nancy would have preferred to have
me cover for her and hit the ball back, but I knew Mrs. Hodoway was grading
for teamwork and that if I helped Nancy, I would be marked down for hogging
the ball. What do we have of Nancy’s story or her perspectives? She is gone
now, having died from multiple sclerosis in 1991.
What stories or perspectives do we have of students who had no opportunities
in sports because they had to help their parents on the farm, work at jobs
in town to earn money, or were female when there were no sports
opportunities for girls?
I am proud of my collection of photos and pleased that technology allows us
to make them available in cyberspace. However, even though "a picture can be
worth 1000 words," the photo gallery does not tell the stories and
perspectives of Rolfe citizens or students. That’s why the essay and forum
pages have such great potential. They can be avenues for discourse that
include football and basketball but that also tell a myriad of other
experiences and thoughts that have been overshadowed by popular and highly
visible images.
Trillions of Perspectives
Martin E. Marty (director of the Public Religion Project at the University
of Chicago) gave a talk for the Humanities Iowa Days in 1999 during which he
suggested a way to fathom the many options possible for rural churches. His
illustration is also excellent for comprehending how many perspectives there
are to the RHS experience. Marty says:
"Often I quote The Oxford Companion to Chess, which tells us that ‘there are
2 x 1043 different legal positions on a chess board, and it has been
estimated that the number of distinct 40-move games is 25 x 10115, far
greater than the estimated number of electrons in the universe (1079).’ No
doubt estimates of that final figure have been revised upward ever after the
astronomers who used the Hubble telescope and other such instruments
reported their discovery of 100,000 billion new galaxies, each with roughly
100,000 billion ‘stars.’ And that is not the limit of things. Still it is
safe to guess that the number of options on a chess board keeps ahead of the
expanding universe.
"I often follow up this chess illustration by telling of the time I asked a
University of Chicago mathematician if those figures sounded proper. ‘Oh,
yes.’ In other words, I responded, they are ‘infinite.’ ‘ Oh, no!’ he shot
back. Infinity was for the divinity school. For disciplines such as
astronomy and mathematics, he counseled, just think of a very large number.
"There are several trillion more cells in the human cortex than there are
places on a chess board. So multiply that larger number by the number of
people who care about rural America and rural churches and you have, no, not
infinite, but, yes, ‘a very large number’ of possibilities to imagine when
dealing with their future."
The gist of Marty’s talk and what I am saying are different, yet the
discussion about a “very large number” of possibilities is important in both
of our messages.
How many distinct stories can there be from one school? There are at least
100 years of RHS history and that would be 100 graduating classes, with
let’s say an average of 20 students per class. That’s 2000 people. Then toss
in the number of administrators, teachers, and other staff members as well
as parents and friends of the school. Then consider all the trillion cells
that each of us has in our cortex (Where’s Mr. Head, my human physiology
teacher? What exactly is the cortex?) Then factor in that some people were
the oldest children in their families, some the middle, and some the
youngest. That some people loved Miss Marcum and some quit school because of
her style. That some people excelled in trigonometry while others excelled
in vocational agriculture. That some were always going steady and had dates
but others never dated. Indeed, this is only the beginning of the list.
There could be an infinite number of stories and perspectives from RHS.
Writing is a significant tool for looking at the past and imagining the
future. Writing can also be beneficial to a person’s health. So take pen in
hand or sit down to your computer keyboard and craft your thoughts.
I want to thank those people who have written for this project. You should
be honored with purple ribbons or gold-lettered certificates. I trust others
of you will write when the time is right. As it says in Ecclesiastes, “For
everything there is a season, and a time for every matter under heaven, a
time to plant and a time to pluck up what is planted . . . a time to keep
silent and a time to speak.”
I can be more pessimist than optimist, and when thinking of the “cup as half
empty,” lament there have not been more people willing to write essays or
participate in the web site. Indeed, we are missing many great stories n
some fun, some challenging, some tender.
One woman who graduated in 1952 told me about being a student in
Superintendent Mortensen’s senior government class the year the new gym was
built. She said he spent a lot of time looking out the window watching the
construction and talking about the progress of the gym. One day she wrote a
note to her boyfriend (now husband) saying, “Mort is talking about the gym
again, so I’ll take this opportunity to write to you.” She continued with
sweet talk, addressing her friend as “Honey.” Then on her way to the next
class, she handed the note to the friend, but “Mort” caught her in the act
and wanted the recipient to turn over the note. The boyfriend agreed only on
the condition that Mr. Mortensen not read it. The next morning in class, Mr.
Mortensen said, “Something happened in this class yesterday that I never
want to happen again.” He told about the girl’s reference to him not
teaching but talking about the gym. He ended his lecture by instructing the
girl, “Now Miss _____, you teach the class.” The girl was uncomfortable and
the room, quiet. She realized Mr. Mortensen had read the entire contents of
her note, not only her criticism of him but her romantic remarks. She went
ahead and did her best to teach the class but said it was fortunate her
classmates helped as best they could. Few, if any, had done their homework
adequately since they had anticipated that, as was his custom, Mr. Mortensen
would talk about the gym and leave little time for the government
curriculum. Despite her embarrassment and his questionable use of authority,
the woman has high regard today for her former superintendent, claiming he
did a lot for the school.
A good-hearted fellow, now in his 60s, tells about the crush he had on a
girl beginning when he was in fourth grade. As a kid, when he signed up for
band, he chose the same brass instrument she played in hopes of sitting next
to her. As a teenager, he worked as a hired hand for the girl’s dad and
lived with the family during the summer, again so he could be close to her.
Sometimes the girl and boy would go to a movie in Poky, and at night, his
heart would pound as he tried to fall asleep in the room down the hall from
hers. However, he doubted she knew how strongly he felt for her. He worked a
second summer on the farm even though the girl’s father was a taskmaster. In
his mid-twenties, the young man visited the girl (now woman) in northern
California. She confided she had always liked him because he didn’t put
moves on her but added she viewed him more as a brother than a serious date.
The news was hard on his ego, but he appreciated her candor and willingness
to tell him about the long-term relationship she was in with a woman. He
eventually married but always held a fondness for the woman he first fell in
love with in grade school. Although he lived many states away, he grieved
his friend’s death from cancer and regretted he had not followed up on
intentions to write or call her after hearing of her illness.
A mother of six RHS graduates has talked to me several time about her son
who was popular, president of the student body and graduated in 1970. She
said each year she goes through a low spell for a week in July prior to the
anniversary of the boy’s death. He was killed in a construction accident the
summer following his senior year. The woman also said she was puzzled for
several years when she decorated graves at the cemetery because there would
always be a simple potted plant with a single bloom n a mum or violet n or a
cut flower lying on her son’s grave. She had no idea who left the flowers
until one day she confided to Pocahontas co-workers about the mystery, not
expecting they would know the identity of the giver. Another staff member
overheard the conversation and spoke up, saying her own son was the one who
had been leaving the flowers. She explained that students often picked on
her son in school and that the young man who had been killed, although a few
years older than her own boy, had always stuck up for him. Each year, her
son would ask his mom for a ride to the cemetery to place a lone flower on
the gravestone as a way of saying, thanks. Who knows what else that
sensitive teenager felt and wanted to say.
Optimism
Indeed, there is a sea of stories about the RHS experience, but I need to
remember it’s okay more people have not written. When I think of the “cup as
half full,” I realize we have a great project and the people who have
contributed should be proud of it. Rolfe’s town motto is “Some bigger, none
better.” In the same spirit, not many high schools can claim a better
attempt to stimulate cyber connections and alumni discourse.
Perhaps by 2005, enough new essays will accumulate to create a new edition
of this book. However, there is the adage to take one step at a time and the
maxim to live in the present. With the July 2000 reunion behind us, autumn
here and the corn and soybean crop harvested, it is also the season to
complete this Y2K edition of Rolfe High School essays and know it is good
and sufficient. We have gathered some great stories and reflections and
invite readers to share in our harvest.
As I prepare the book for the printers, I feel immense gratitude for the
writers, donors, and other people who made the project possible. Thanks for
your correspondence and conversations, and especially for your essays.
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Post Script #1. Would someone like to write an essay helping us
comprehend what “a trillion” means? I don’t remember hearing much about the
term in junior high math from Miss Pattee or in high school algebra and
geometry from Mr. Maxon. I’ll bet the number is unfathomable to many people
of my generation and older except for those who regularly calculate the
national budget, keep track of Bill Gates’ income, or study the cosmos.
Post Script #2. The essay guidelines are
on the web site and in the back of this book.
Post Script #3. I don’t know for how long a time it was fashionable
for high school girls to wear what was called a “drape” for their senior
portrait sittings. It was a strapless, black thing worn on the upper torso
but leaving the neck and shoulders bare. I had no desire for that look in my
senior photo but wanted to wear a cherry-red, crewneck sweater I had
purchased from the Sears Roebuck catalog. I wore that sweater a lot, always
with a tailored shirt underneath, its collar enhancing the neckline. The
look was me. When our class rode the school bus to Don Peterson’s studio in
Ft. Dodge for portraits, I took both the sweater and a shirt. My friends
agreed it was okay to wear the sweater, even if it wasn’t dressy or
“feminine,” but they insisted I not wear the shirt under it. Also, in those
days, my standard hairdo was short and straight during the spring and summer
months until school started and Mother announced that all the “nice girls”
were getting perms and that I should get one, too. And what can I say about
my pointed eyeglasses? Somehow they seemed okay. Today, I regret I no longer
have the cherry-red sweater, but am glad I could make a fashion statement
(even if a subtle one) when I recently had a photo taken and wore a tailored
shirt with button-down collar under my sweater (actually sweatshirt). So
much for fashion.
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